Ok, so I have been a total putz! I haven't written on my blog in forever. Why? Don't know... maybe cause I feel like a fraud. Maybe cause I feel like I am not doing enough to get to my goal. Maybe because I haven't been running as much as I would like. Maybe, maybe, maybe... I am sure all those reasons are part of it. I want to commit to this journey so so much and yet the mind and heart aren't always in line with each other, what's the deal? I can't figure it all out but I do keep trying. I figure that's part of it.
Last week I was totally pumped because I ran for 5min straight and my legs didn't hurt and I actually felt like if I had to I could have maybe gone another minute but then I would have been super tired... I decided to feel "tested not crushed" and stopped at 5min. I really wanted to run for 6 this week but both days I went to the gym the treadmills were taken... and on the one day there were 3 guys working out in there. I could have used the bike (as it was the only machine not in use) but since I wanted to run and was a bit intimidated by the guys I left. I did do a workout the next day on the same bike I could have used the night before.
I know you're all cheering me on and that helps so thank you for that. I continue to try, please know that.
Thanks,
Jocelyn
